When there are too many thoughts in my mind, I often search for an outlet. I strive for connection. Meaningful conversations. Anything that pushes me forward. However it can push me too far. In these moments when I see so many ways everything I aim for could come together, I find myself overwhelmed. Consumed by emotions.

We Are Tired of working more and living less. 

I’ve seen it. I’ve lived it. When my job didn’t align with my purpose, when I want to d more to help people, my mind pushes itself currently. As much as Maekonect was meant to help others, I realize it can help me just as much, if not more.

So what do we do? 

The first to do is identify what is happening. Are pulling away (dissociate), spiral one way or the other (distress), or make others suffer as we have (depress). Dissociating what what I did most way back then. When I wanted to avoid my moms changed mental state and avoid the fact that one day she will no longer be here physically, I poured it all into gaming. There have many moments in subsequent years where I go all in to bring about “the solution” to my problems, which sent me into states of mania.

While it is good to have grace and space to exist, there is a way t o get through it. First, we have to accept that we are tired. I am tired of seeing so many solutions and little progress. Rather than worry and spiral… I now realize I must slow down and do something else.

Next time, I will go over it.