I may not make it big, but what if?
If I don’t, so what?
At least I had fun

Such are the words I wrote myself while working on a book. It’s tied to Maekonect, yes, but it’s mainly about expressing what I’m going through. It lays the foundation for what Maekonect means and what society could look at if it changed. I want to pour my all into it, because if nothing else, there may be one person out there who it resonates with. Maybe they will see they are not alone, nor simply crazy. There are complexities in everything and not everything is as it seems. My goal is that everyone who has been labeled as “different” or with a “disability” can see themselves in the series.

I’m partially doing this to document what’s going on with me. My challenges in balancing meds and madness, mania and magic. The source I tapped into should not be hidden. I want to share. i want to make sense of my ramblings and prove they were not just nonsense, they mattered. They made sense and they still make it with the correct mindset. It’s been a ride going through what I wrote, but its all inspiration for something better. I want to write for me. There is no me without we, thus I write for us.

There is a chance this could make it big. Big enough where I could live as a writer. Where I could work by gaining experiences and meeting people, funneling ideas into stories because I’m good at it. I could solve all my problems in this life by making enough to supplement a part time job or a full time one. Perhaps more importantly, I could write something that gains renown in the future. Something that inspires others to change how people are addressed, alters how we live, and helps society be more fair. The raise of morality above monetary could become a thing ushered in with my help. This could be big in both cases.

There’s also the chance that it won’t. That no one would want to read it. That no one would care. That it’s point gets lost and confounded in the pages. All that is true…. but why not let my heart soar with what ifs? The idea of it making an impact to even one person warms my heart with so much hope. I want to write it for that one person who would chose to read it. No… I can’t let myself write for that reason alone. I have to do it for me. For myself to altruistically do what we all should do: help ourselves.

While I am doing this basic block of being, I do not want to forget what started all of this: Maekonect.

On Common Ground, May We Connect.

I still want to bring people together on neutral ground where people can talk respectfully. I want to celebrate spaces where people on both sides of the aisle are welcome to be as long as they are cordial. I want to get people thinking, feeling, and dreaming about a “better” future where we all celebrate our commonality and diversity. In a country where most play Chess I want more to learn the art of Go. I want to learn Go. I’d like to get people to learn Go. I’d like to see if Chess players could play Go better and vice versa. It would be cool to do.

I want to create space for those who exist online and wish to remain isolated from society. I want there to be space for those who do not wish to participate on a grand scale. They are still important people who make a difference. They also mean the world to someone, even if it starts with themselves.

I want so much for everyone else…. that I simply must focus on myself.

There is no We without Me
There is no Me without We
Who am I?
You

I see you in the ICU
You are not forgotten
You are not alone
We’re in this together.